A Little About Me

February 4, 2006

I was critical of the ex-gay thing before I reluctantly became a part of it, before the combination of an unplanned conversion to evangelical Christianity and a raging dyke libido drove me to it. I had mixed feelings about taking up an ex-gay path, but as I didn’t exactly take to celibacy like a duck to water, I needed some support. I didn’t expect to become attracted to men, I didn’t even really want to become attracted to men. It’s just that my newfound convictions wouldn’t let me be with women. So either I needed to figure out how to live happily without sex or romance, or I needed to figure out how to want guys. Or at least how to want to want them. Or at least how to want to want to want…

For three years I was frustrated and/or miserable more often than not. Then I spent a year in a Christian (but not ex-gay-specific) residential program, which while quite intense was very helpful to me in enabling me to get a grip on my Christian life. After that I spent a year and a half struggling but stable and passably content. And then I unexpectedly (understatement of the century!) fell in love with the man who is now my husband.

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First Post

February 4, 2006

I tried to do the blog thing a couple of times before. Neither time was I very successful in sticking with it. My problem was that I didn’t want the blogs to be too ex-gay. I wanted them to be balanced and personal, with cute quizzes and memes, discussion of what I ate for breakfast, etc. Not devoted primarily to one issue–I didn’t want people to think I was obsessed or something.

But I discovered that I’m not really interested in writing online about much else besides ex-gay and related issues. Sure, I do other things and think about other things, but none of them seem terribly blogworthy right now. Which brings me to my decision to start an all-ex-gay-all-the-time blog.
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